Ok- I have been having some really wierd dreams lately. As most of you know, my dad, Bubba, passed away last December. It was probably one the saddest things that I have ever had to go thru in my 29 years on this earth. The last few months, I have had these reoccurring dreams about him, but he is alive in every one of them. In the dreams, I know that he is about to die and I try to spend as much time as I can with him before it happens. I wake up sweating and crying. These dreams are so disturbing to me, and I think about them all day after I have had them. Is it guilt for not spending more time with him before he was gone? I don't know. I think that maybe that is what it is about. Last night's dream had my grandfather in it too - who has passed away. Why am I dreaming about these two special people and why are they alive in the dreams? I love the idea of seeing them alive, but the dreams are always sad, b/c I know that they are going to pass away before I wake up. I am totally rambling on and on about this, but I have pondered it alot today, and here is my conclusion: spend as much time with your loved ones as you can, call them EVERY time that they cross your mind - don't wait to and say - oh - I'll call them later. Call them NOW! Take lots of pics - they hold special memories when your loved ones are gone, and NEVER EVER take one moment with your loved ones for granted!
On a lighter note, my friend Susie, is going to meet Nicholas Sparks tomorrow. She is so lucky and has gotten to meet him several times. Anyways, she is going to get a book autographed for me for my birthday!!!! YAY!!!! I am SOOOOOO.....super excited about it!!! Thanks, Susie!! :)
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